When This Scar is Gone 

This is a really personal song. When my wife was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer in March of 2016, we were devastated.  The next day she asked me "if I die, do you think you will re-marry?"  I said that I didn't want to think about it - I wanted to focus my thoughts on her NOT dying!  She said "okay, but if it happens, I think you should".  When she went to heaven on March 10th, 2017, that was the greatest loss I've experienced in my life but I just continually remind myself that we were lucky to have the time that we did together.  When she passed, I left my wedding ring on and then at some point I decided I would  take it off on the one year anniversary of her passing.  When I took it off, I saw that big indention that you get on your finger when you wear a ring for a long time.  I started to think of that as my "scar".   I started to think about dating but really I have no idea how to do that.  Even though I've been married twice, I never went on dates with either one before we were married (it's a long story).  So I didn't feel ready to try anything like that and I thought to myself that if I tried flirting with someone they would probably see my "scar" and think that I was cheater! Hahaha.  One day I was looking down at my scar and I wrote this little poem in about 10 minutes. The basic idea was that I saw the healing of that indentation as something that would take time and time was what I needed.  A few weeks later I wrote the music and I recorded it   It's so personal that I haven't performed it in public yet but I recorded it because I figured that other people might relate to it.   

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